Very honest and powerful write, Susan. I know the feeling, having suffered severe depression myself before. My Dad was very honest about the depressions he went through, when the struggle of fighting for his health became just too great, at times. Then, by some grace, he’d be given the strength to pick himself up and push through it — but, as he said, he had to go through it. There was no getting around it. I’m glad you’re on the other end, and bottoming out. It gets better from here.