This was so well-told, Donna. When you first encountered him, after all those years, I had to remind myself to keep breathing — so compelling!
I just recently had to forgive a 42 year-old resentment I’d carried (nothing along the lines of what you experienced, but enough to keep me in fear, and holding such a deep, underlying, resentment of the person for all those years that I only became fully and acutely aware of when I found that I didn’t have a kind word to say about him on his funeral home’s memorial page for him). I owed an amends to the man, and couldn’t do it unless I get over my own resentment of him. That’s when I realized why none of my sponsors wanted me to make that amends directly for all those years. I wasn’t capable of doing it. What a relief, now that it is done, and I found that forgiveness (for him, and for myself.)
This was really well written.